Calm thinking and an open mind, help to keep the storm at bay, even when its extremely petty.
Being in recovery from not only myself, but from Procrastination is teaching me to be more anchored in my life no matter what the storm is going on around me.
Doing simple things every day, is giving me strength. Keeping routine and having a safe place to go, are two of the most important things in life.
Connection to real people who only see the positive in life, is someting i am striving to find, but then i am also watching and waiting patiently.
Something i have been practicing for most of my life.
Today i came home to celebrate five years of being with this man. We actually forgot it was last friday.
I have never really been in a relationship a true relationship. I have had plenty of boys in my life, but not a man. Boys played me, used me, let me think that i was important, well i was for that one moment when they needed me, but then i was discarded like a tissue a used tissue.
Years ago i painted a picture of a tissue box, wrote those words on it and was told i shouldnt express myself like that, but it was true. I had allowed it, because i didn’t have real confidence in myself.
It was painted at the beginning of my breakdown.
I never gave up hope that i would meet the man of my dreams.
I have now been in a proper relationship for five years. Have we had our ups and downs? Of course. We are both bringing a lot of issues from our past with us. We have children, but none live with us, so do not have that baggage.
I have always been on my own, no one wanted to live with me, or commit to me, so i brought my fierce independence in, i needed a man who could match my strength and not be afraid of it, where he needed a calming influence, some one who didnt want to argue.
The perfect fit really.
Do we always have a lot in common, sometimes not, but at the end of everyday we kiss each other good night, we understand that we can not be the same, otherwise we would be bored.
(I do love to keep him on his toes. ) 😏😁
Love you my darling. Xxx