One of my three tasks was completed today and that was done half heartedly, my 5 am gym work out. When ever i have to wake up early, i always feel like i haven’t slept. My dreams feel real, and i wake up thinking were they real, which can be a little exhusting.
My half day at work, turned into a full day. I had forgotten that my little fur baby had a check up at the vet, so that cancelled my Pilates class.
As for my writting, nothing was accomplished today. What i did accomplish was that i have to learn to stop thinking so much.
Learning not to Procrastinate and to keep life simple, means that i can not be hard on myself. There is only so many hours in my day and thinking and worrying takes up to much time. I can not always get everything i have set out to do done, which is perfectly ok.
Life has taught me many things, its made me soft and its made me hard. Have i made mistakes, have i hurt others, have others hurt me, yes!
It’s all apart of growing up, becoming an adult learning by our mistakes. I have been in recovery from myself for a while now. I have slowly began to learn to switch off from certain triggers, can these triggers get me sometimes? Of course, but tomorrow is a new day and i better prepared for what may come.
Tomorrow my tasks will be,
1. Take a deep breath, when faced with a trigger.
2. Laugh a lot.
3. Try not to swear. I have noticed i have been cussing a lot lately and its not very lady like.