The last couple of days have been emotionally hectic in my work situation. Dealing with a person who has elevated multiple personality and is very manic, has been very trying. And its only Wednesday.
But everyday i have gotten up and put on my big girl panties, a very large smile and gone back in to see if the situation has changed and if there is a more positive way to tackle the problem.
Our actions are what our clients see and if we do not keep following through then, nothing will change, and the same applies to my everyday life.
Yesterday i was out cold on my couch, by 7.30 pm. Hubby to be zombie walked me to bed at 11.45 pm and i just managed to set my alarm, before being asleep again.
Today i have been not as tired, but i have taken responsibility for all the things that i needed to do.
With my wedding fast approaching i am becoming a little overwhelmed with what needs to be done, how much money needs to be spent and how little time is left.
My procrastination is kicking in a little, because of my fear and feelings of being overwhelmed. I can see why couples fight so much leading up to a wedding.
But like my work situation i need to pull up my big girl panties and just keep going.
For the last 12 years or so i have tried to retain my old habits and my old thinking and as all people in recovery knows, old thinking will get us into trouble.
We need to build new habits, new thinking and new ways of seeing things.
I am a logical woman, when my fear and procrastination isn’t wreaking havoc on my life, i was very methodical before my breakdown and this is how i should work through things and now that i am facing my procrastination i am starting to do this again.
It is has been the best way of seeing my actions at work. Seeing my path opening up and getting my confidence back.
Keeping everything simple, is also the trick.