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It feels like just a memory, when i walked down the aisle.

The world has changed so much and so quickly, that it feels like we have come to a stand still.

It has all happened in just a few weeks.

The pressure of the unknown, the thoughts and the feelings is in a sense a little insane.

Positive vibes i throw out to the world every day, positive vibes coming back most of the time.

I shouldnt complain, because life goes on, but its not what i thought married life would start out like.

I feel for those who have had to put their lives on hold.

I am grateful that i can go out to my job, that my husband can still go to work.

I shouldn’t complain, but lock down is a pain.

I hope everyone is staying safe.

Keeping it simple one day at a time.

Its been one of those weeks, where it has been absolutely hectic.

The emotions of what has been happening out in the world have been allowed to creep in and muddle up my brain.

As a part of a way of starving off boredom while in lock down, my writters group has a word they put up everyday and we write a short 50 word structure around that word.

I am not in lock down, i am essential frontline worker, so my days haven’t changed to much, just more thought into how everything is done to keep the residents safe and happy.

I have been timing myself.

Monday it took me just 6 minutes to think up and write my 50 word story.

Tuesday it took me 45 minutes

Wednesday 30 minutes

This morning it only took me 20 minutes.

Monday was a busy day, but i felt rested. 6 minutes was good.

Tuesday i was so frazzled that i passed out on the couch and i struggled to write my 50 words. My brain was on fast forward, i took to much in.

Didnt stop to breath.

Wednesday while still busy, i was realising my deliema about my writting.

Today i had the morning off, i allowed myself to have some quiet time, i did a few things, before i sat down and wrote out my 50 words.

50 words that included the other three words and bringing all the days together.

I felt my brain calm and my day flowed much better.

The key to balance is to delegate and slow down. Not to the point of procrastination though. Lol

Keeping it simple one day at a time

I have kept myself very busy this weekend.

Yesterday we spent the whole day finishing up the back yard. My legs where like jelly. I felt like i had done a thousand squat’s.

Incidental exercise is the best work out. I felt accomplished.

Today i am having a day off. I have tried sonething new in the kitchen. The above picture is something i have wanted to try for a while and have put it off due to other things and a little procrastination.

Roasted chickpea’s sound delicious.

I got sucked into one of favourite movies Rocky and my chickpea’s come out a little cruncher than i hoped.

At first if i do not succeed then i will try again. Not today though as i only had one can of chickpea’s and now i will have to soak some dry ones overnight to try again.

Its only a small thing, but it is better than being full blown procrastinating on a sunday.

Keeping it simple one day at a time.

This is what procrastination looks like. Terrible i tell you terrible.

I put things in the corner and forget about it. Can not do that with blackberry plants though or weeds.

I spent the majority of my day just in my back garden. Veggie garden is started. We pulled out the yukkas. Chopped down the plum tree. Pulled a lot of weeds as well.

Its amazing how much energy you find, when you know your not allowed out in the community unless for work or essential items.

Its my weekend off and i am not even allowed to go to our retreat like we would normally go.

Sacrifices that have to be made to keep us healthy.

Tomorrow i will be dragging all the rubbish in to hubbys ute and i will be starting on the front garden.

This is my higher power telling me to clean up all the crap in my life. Get into a better routine.

Keeping it simple one day at time.

Yesterday i tried to have a low technology day. I am going to start practicing not being on my phone or tablet so much, well not for facebook anyway.

Only for writting and blogging.

I am already tired from hearing the same things over and over again. Its maddening and is doing my head in really.

I love good conversation.Really deep good conversation where you leave feeling not only enlightened, but re energized as well.

I am starting my own little movement, besides my veggie garden. In a quest to find more positive in a world that is in the grip of a negative virus.Finding positive things to do helps with procrastination, it helps to keep me motivated as well. I am hoping it will help to starve of the negatively of what is happening and will help to keep people feeling positive in a world where it could be crumbling around them.

I am hoping to send the “Love ❤ Virus” out into the world.

Keeping it simple one day at a time.

Busy busy today. Here is my future salad in the making.

Yes very small right now, but i am happy with my beginning of what will grow in the future.

Tomatos in the red tin. Messier to make than i thought. Baby bok choy. Cos lettuce, garlic, spring onion, carrot and my favourite radish.

Radish was my go to when i was pregnant with my daughter, also the one thing my granddad thought would turn me off stealing from his veggie patch, how wrong he was. (Insert evil laugh)

Keeping it simple one day at a time.

Well my idea of starting my own little veg garden, is the same idea that others have had. The difference being i am well aware that it takes time to start one successfully, and my thumb is only a murky green color, not the beautiful green of others i know and respect.

There are little to no seeds left here and i wasn’t panic buying the ones that were left, because i am not a panic buyer. One woman apparently spent $300 on seeds. I really do hope that they are prize veggies, and they feed her family for years to come.

There were not even any veggies already growing left either. I was only in bunnings on Saturday and there was rows and rows of them. I could get some strawberries, but in reality we are heading in the winter and berries are really a summer fruit. I have patience i will wait till the end of winter to buy some.

Actually all i had wanted was some tomato plants, because i have been successfully growing my left over veg on the window sill and re using that.

I was lucky enough to find this little tomato starter kit. Its all i need really. I am not greedy and also i don’t think the world is going to end, because of this virus.

I think to help with my procrastination over the coming winter months, because that is when i am at my worse. I am going to learn how to cultivate veggies properly from scraps. Do it the old fashion way. I will start it all in pots, while i experiment with what works and doesn’t work, before setting up a full scale veggie garden in my backyard. Sensible, workable, not over whelming.

Pinterest and anyone elses ideas will be gratfully recieved.

Keeping it simple one day at a time.

Now i know why everyone has gone crazy on the toliet paper. They are all starting their own veggies.

Extremely good idea. Its a thought i am thinking. We have a lot of unused garden bed out the back. Home grown veg tastes better than any store brought veg. I used to get in trouble all the time for scavenging out of my grand parents and aunts veggie gardens, when i was a kid.

I will start out slow. Build it up one veg at a time. I have planted sone herbs to begin with. I have been experimenting with growing left over veggies. I have some celery growing. My baby bok choy is also about to sprout and my cos lettuce as well which are on my window ledge.

I will give them another couple of days before transplanting them.

I am hoping my home garden will be up and thriving by the end of 8 weeks. Just in time hopefully for the world’s virus to be gone and the world to be back to semi normal again.

Actually i am hoping that this virus teaches the world to be nicer to each other and that there is a positive outcome, such as a cleaner environment. Less pollution and more effort to become healthier.

Keeping it simple one day at a time.

Last night i was mentally and physically exhausted. My whole body ached.

I layed down and went into the deepest sleep i have ever had when i am at work.

I warned the residents that if i didnt hear the buzzers, then i was sorry. They all promised not to buzz and not one of them did.

With everything happening in the world, its sort of creating chaos in my work environment and last night, it just drained the last bit of positive out of me.

I even went home this morning and slept for hours.

I am tired now, but not as tired as i was yesterday.

Learning to identify when i am drained and learning to look after myself mentally is some times hard when your an empath. Switching off is hard to do.

Keeping it simple one day at a time.

For those who do not know me well or even at all, but love reading my posts. When i am not blogging or trying very hard not to procrastinate, i am a disability support worker.

The last three weeks have been cray cray crazy with this corona virus shutting down our world, one country at a time.

I have been working like crazy, as if one person says they are sick, poof no work for two weeks. Whoops that leaves our independent supported house short staffed. Also due to having a couple of lovely weeks off from work to get married and have my honeymoon, it has also left me broke, as i am a casual worker.

I had to use some of our savings to tide us over to buy food and things we needed in between my coming home and then getting paid.

But i have really been hanging for that first pay check as a Mrs to help me feel like i am contributing again into our household.

Between us a couple of days ago we got some shopping, and after actually finding some time to get to the shops, i realised that all this bulk buying has really got out of hand.

Today i went up to the local shopping center to get the last few things i needed to fill my fridge.

Now i would like to say that i am and have always been a fortnight shopper after years of being a single mum and mainly working in jobs where i was paid fortnightly, my shopping has naturally followed the fortnight tradition.

When i was finally able to get up to the shops to buy my shopping and only what we needed, because we had gotten some shopping during the week to tide us over until i was paid. I was suprised by how much good foods like fruit and veg are left. I also brought our bread at the local bakery when i got my lunch. I brought fresh fish.

The local fruit and veg store was very well stocked with everything i needed. And i was allowed to buy two packets of pasta as well. Not limits like in the big chain supermarkets. I am going to make a conscious effort to go back to shopping in the smaller independent stores.

When i did go into the big chain supermarket, i noticed that there still lots of fresh food left. Not much meat, but i didn’t need any as we have what we need. There was fesh milk, lots of junk food and not alot of anything else, except for……..

TAPIOCA mmmmmm i loved this stuff when i was a kid. I actually thought it wasn’t made any more, thought it had given up the ghost like tang many years before.

It was like a divine revelation to see this beautiful little staple sitting pretty much by its self on the bottom shelf. I couldn’t believe my eyes when i saw it.

It wasn’t even a second thought, that went through my always wanting to be healthy mind. Not always achieving this health goal. It was like i was transported back in time to when i was just a little tacker and mum had made it up as a treat for us.

I have brought it home to make some up for the weekend. it would have been made tonight, but because of the fact that i am not a baker i dont have any vanilla essences in the house, so tomorrow i will go up and get some. (Hopefully there is some, though its not near the toilet paper so there is a chance) otherwise i will be putting a call out to all the ladies who are bakers to borrow some.

I am looking forward to my first taste in probably 30 years.

It is the simple things in life that make you happy.

Keeping it simple one day at a time.