Day 119 Days of Recovery from Procrastination

Busy busy today. Here is my future salad in the making.

Yes very small right now, but i am happy with my beginning of what will grow in the future.

Tomatos in the red tin. Messier to make than i thought. Baby bok choy. Cos lettuce, garlic, spring onion, carrot and my favourite radish.

Radish was my go to when i was pregnant with my daughter, also the one thing my granddad thought would turn me off stealing from his veggie patch, how wrong he was. (Insert evil laugh)

Keeping it simple one day at a time.

Day 120 Days of Recovery from Procrastination

Well my idea of starting my own little veg garden, is the same idea that others have had. The difference being i am well aware that it takes time to start one successfully, and my thumb is only a murky green color, not the beautiful green of others i know and respect.

There are little to no seeds left here and i wasn’t panic buying the ones that were left, because i am not a panic buyer. One woman apparently spent $300 on seeds. I really do hope that they are prize veggies, and they feed her family for years to come.

There were not even any veggies already growing left either. I was only in bunnings on Saturday and there was rows and rows of them. I could get some strawberries, but in reality we are heading in the winter and berries are really a summer fruit. I have patience i will wait till the end of winter to buy some.

Actually all i had wanted was some tomato plants, because i have been successfully growing my left over veg on the window sill and re using that.

I was lucky enough to find this little tomato starter kit. Its all i need really. I am not greedy and also i don’t think the world is going to end, because of this virus.

I think to help with my procrastination over the coming winter months, because that is when i am at my worse. I am going to learn how to cultivate veggies properly from scraps. Do it the old fashion way. I will start it all in pots, while i experiment with what works and doesn’t work, before setting up a full scale veggie garden in my backyard. Sensible, workable, not over whelming.

Pinterest and anyone elses ideas will be gratfully recieved.

Keeping it simple one day at a time.

Day 121 Days of Recovery from Procrastination

Now i know why everyone has gone crazy on the toliet paper. They are all starting their own veggies.

Extremely good idea. Its a thought i am thinking. We have a lot of unused garden bed out the back. Home grown veg tastes better than any store brought veg. I used to get in trouble all the time for scavenging out of my grand parents and aunts veggie gardens, when i was a kid.

I will start out slow. Build it up one veg at a time. I have planted sone herbs to begin with. I have been experimenting with growing left over veggies. I have some celery growing. My baby bok choy is also about to sprout and my cos lettuce as well which are on my window ledge.

I will give them another couple of days before transplanting them.

I am hoping my home garden will be up and thriving by the end of 8 weeks. Just in time hopefully for the world’s virus to be gone and the world to be back to semi normal again.

Actually i am hoping that this virus teaches the world to be nicer to each other and that there is a positive outcome, such as a cleaner environment. Less pollution and more effort to become healthier.

Keeping it simple one day at a time.

Day 123/122 Day’s of Recovery from Procrastination

Last night i was mentally and physically exhausted. My whole body ached.

I layed down and went into the deepest sleep i have ever had when i am at work.

I warned the residents that if i didnt hear the buzzers, then i was sorry. They all promised not to buzz and not one of them did.

With everything happening in the world, its sort of creating chaos in my work environment and last night, it just drained the last bit of positive out of me.

I even went home this morning and slept for hours.

I am tired now, but not as tired as i was yesterday.

Learning to identify when i am drained and learning to look after myself mentally is some times hard when your an empath. Switching off is hard to do.

Keeping it simple one day at a time.

Day 124 Days of Recovery from Procrastination

For those who do not know me well or even at all, but love reading my posts. When i am not blogging or trying very hard not to procrastinate, i am a disability support worker.

The last three weeks have been cray cray crazy with this corona virus shutting down our world, one country at a time.

I have been working like crazy, as if one person says they are sick, poof no work for two weeks. Whoops that leaves our independent supported house short staffed. Also due to having a couple of lovely weeks off from work to get married and have my honeymoon, it has also left me broke, as i am a casual worker.

I had to use some of our savings to tide us over to buy food and things we needed in between my coming home and then getting paid.

But i have really been hanging for that first pay check as a Mrs to help me feel like i am contributing again into our household.

Between us a couple of days ago we got some shopping, and after actually finding some time to get to the shops, i realised that all this bulk buying has really got out of hand.

Today i went up to the local shopping center to get the last few things i needed to fill my fridge.

Now i would like to say that i am and have always been a fortnight shopper after years of being a single mum and mainly working in jobs where i was paid fortnightly, my shopping has naturally followed the fortnight tradition.

When i was finally able to get up to the shops to buy my shopping and only what we needed, because we had gotten some shopping during the week to tide us over until i was paid. I was suprised by how much good foods like fruit and veg are left. I also brought our bread at the local bakery when i got my lunch. I brought fresh fish.

The local fruit and veg store was very well stocked with everything i needed. And i was allowed to buy two packets of pasta as well. Not limits like in the big chain supermarkets. I am going to make a conscious effort to go back to shopping in the smaller independent stores.

When i did go into the big chain supermarket, i noticed that there still lots of fresh food left. Not much meat, but i didn’t need any as we have what we need. There was fesh milk, lots of junk food and not alot of anything else, except for……..

TAPIOCA mmmmmm i loved this stuff when i was a kid. I actually thought it wasn’t made any more, thought it had given up the ghost like tang many years before.

It was like a divine revelation to see this beautiful little staple sitting pretty much by its self on the bottom shelf. I couldn’t believe my eyes when i saw it.

It wasn’t even a second thought, that went through my always wanting to be healthy mind. Not always achieving this health goal. It was like i was transported back in time to when i was just a little tacker and mum had made it up as a treat for us.

I have brought it home to make some up for the weekend. it would have been made tonight, but because of the fact that i am not a baker i dont have any vanilla essences in the house, so tomorrow i will go up and get some. (Hopefully there is some, though its not near the toilet paper so there is a chance) otherwise i will be putting a call out to all the ladies who are bakers to borrow some.

I am looking forward to my first taste in probably 30 years.

It is the simple things in life that make you happy.

Keeping it simple one day at a time.

Day 125 Days of Recovery from Procrastination

The world is in lockdown, everything is stopping. My AA meetings are being closed for a couple of weeks, our grand daughters drama class is on hold too. My husband has had emails saying that businesses he uses are shutting down for a few weeks too. He as a small business owner would have had cabin fever if there had been no footy, to look forward to. Take his mind off the bills that need to be paid.

Hallelujah there was a small miracle in our house. Some tension taken away.

Life would have been unbearable if they had cancelled all the Aussie rules games. (Well not for me i would watch the lifestyle programs.)

Will it be different watching the games on the tv and not seeing the crowds, booing and cheering for their teams yes it will.

I am told, by my footy loving husband that it will test the teams. Crowd participation sometimes directs how a team plays.

Pretty much the same way we have played with current bullshit that is going on in the world.

Waiting and watching.

Washing my hands every chance i get.

Keeping it simple one day at a time.

GO CATS BRING HOME THE FLAG.

Day 126 Days of Recovery from Procrastination

I think this is the face of at least 70% of Australia population at the moment. Ravaged with hysteria over something that, yes is important, but managable as well.

My face thinking about that percentage, and hysteria that is happening to my nation.

Why why why is everyone going stupid? I understand self isolation could be hard, but from i can see the nation is going to have to go on the show,

My 600 pound life!!!!!!!!!

Because they are going to eat themselves stupid.

I wonder if the nation has brought a shit load of laxatives too, to get rid of all that food and thats why i can not buy toliet paper!!!!!

Between my husband and myself with the help of a co worker that had some spare time today, we have enough food for a couple of weeks.

Will i do some more shopping on Thursday? Yes, but only for fruit and veg.

Yes people eating junk lowers your immune system, keep up your strength with whole foods and it will be easier for your body to deal with if you do get sick.

Until i am in lockdown or one of us is sick and cant leave the house i will just continue to live life everyday. I will go to the shop and buy what i need.

I am sure there will be someone out there that could leave the essential items at the gate for me, which is coffee and milk, in the event of me not going out.

So the moral of my story today people is, bambi washes her hands every time she does something, she is also eating healthy foods and trying very hard to stay proactive, not procrastinate about being healthy and bambi never ever wants to look the scary clown.

Unless she is trying to scare the shit out of her friends at a party. Lol

Keeping it simple one day at a time.

Day 127 Days of Recovery from Procrastination

Here is a way to help get through the current bullshit that is going on in the world today.

I am having a throw back Monday.

Three Monday’s ago i had just become a Mrs. Took forty five years, but one of the happiest days of my life after the birth of my one and only child.

Two weeks ago we were coming home from our honeymoon. A vacation that was what every honeymoon should be like. Love, fun, sun, crocodiles, toad races and helicopter ride over one of the seven wonders of the world. What i always dreamed my honeymoon would be.

Tonight we are still blissfully happy, even if the world around us has gone a bit cray cray.

Looking forward to spending more days with my one true love. It helps to keep the procrastination at bay, when there is a slight crisis happening.

All very egotistical to focus on the past here, but its the great thing to remember and hope for again in the future. A time of calm again.

Its just the little things in life that make you smile.

Keeping it simple one day at a time.

Day 129/128 Day’s of Recovery from Procrastination

Yesterday i needed to write something else besides my battle against procrastination.

Sometimes i have an over whelming urge to write what i am feeling. I know this is a part of the writting experience, and its something i need to do to, not only express myself but to quieten my mind as well.

We had our first night away up at our retreat and i just wanted to enjoy the peacefulness of it. It is also where i write my usually better stuff as well.

We have decided if Australian goes into lock down and i am unable to go to work, then thats where we will go to self isolate ourselves. Out in the country, in the fresh air with not to many people around just our dogs and maybe the occasional wave from our closet neighbor.

For right now i am turning the pages of time, waiting to see what is on the next page of my book of life. I am not really enjoying the unease of the world right now, but i will patiently wait it out, and see what happens.

Keep it simple one day at a time.

Letter of Help.

Dear Goverment,

My new husband and i go away on our honeymoon, switch off from everything, enjoy our time. A feeling of an innoncent time. Life is beautiful and seems magical. We have stayed here in Australia, spent our wedding gift money in local businesses, helped tourism. Our honeymoon ends, we get on the plane, we fly home, blissfully unaware of the events happening in the world. Loved up with each other and life in general.

We wake up to a scene from the dawn of the dead movie, (which is a reaccuring nightmare for me after watching the movie many years ago) except there is no zombies, just chaos over toilet paper and hand sanitiser, because our prime minister has not chosen his words correctly and it has caused our nation to go into mass panic, because they all think they are going to die from a virus. Better education maybe would have save people from being attacked and in one case that i know of being tazered over toilet paper. (stupitidy at its finest there!)

Six weeks ago we were working together as a nation to help those effected by bushfires, now there are people beating up each other over toilet paper. It is like we have forgotten how to be nice to each other. Before heading off to get married i transfer the remainder of our roll’s of toilet paper next to the toilet for my friend who is staying to look after our dogs. Think to myself i will buy a big pack like i usually do when we get back, because there will be no Killer virus and life will be normal when we get home. Now i feel funny and a little intiminated about buying toilet paper, because i fear for my life that i could experience the hurds of sheep that are in a frenzy, because you the goverment and the media are hyping this all to through the roof, causing mass hysteria.

In the two weeks since we came home, the world has turned upside down and now your shitting yourselves. Hope you have enough toilet paper? lol

You are handing out money to help those who are disavantaged and to small businesses. Yay thanks for helping, not that i will be apart of either of those getting a hand out. It is also a way i realise of saving our enconomy from free fall with the stock market dipping extrmely low, because of the fear mungering that is going on.

How about now Mr Morrison ( you are our current prime minister) i say that as last time one of our prime ministers started handing out money, we woke up with a new prime minister. Getting back to the point,

TO THE REAL PEOPLE RUNNING OUR COUNTRY,

Could you now think about our economic future better please. Encourage bussinesses to employ all their staff in a full time compasity. Encourage younger Australians to buy and build their first homes, keeing many trades in business during this tough time. Also tighten up on the rookie and dodggie tradesmen who are doing a crap job and exploiting the Australian public. Selling everything to people overseas doesn’t always work well. I have worked for my current employer for just over a year now and have not been given this opportunity.

Goverment please see that i work in a industry where we are the front line to helping to keep people in aged care and with disabilities, who have compromised immune systems stay healthy and well, but we can not do that if there is,

1. THERE IS NOT ENOUGH QUALIFIED AND COMMON SENSE PEOPLE TRAINED TO DO OUR JOBS, IF THERE IS A SPATE OF ILLNESSES. WE FEEL FORCED TO KEEP WORKING, BECAUSE MANY OF US ARE NOT PUT ON FULL TIME AND WHEN WE HAVE TO HAVE A SICK DAY WE DO NOT GET PAID. (WILL THE GOVERMENT PAY US A PAY OUT TOO TO HELP PAY OUR BILLS? WE PAY OUR TAXES!)

2. GOVERMENT I AM HAPPY TO PAY HIGHER TAXES AND WOULD LOVE TO SEE BIG BUSINESSES (MINING FOR EXAMPLE) PAY EVEN BIGGER TAXES AS WELL, SO THAT ALL EDUCATION FROM KINDERGARTON TO UNIVERSITY IS PAID FOR FROM OUR TAXES. PLEASE INCLUDE CHILDCARE IN TO THIS AND IT MAY HELP TO STOP ROUGH OPERATORS FROM EXPLOITING NOT ONLY PARENTS BUT THE WORKERS AS WELL. IT WILL TAKE SO MUCH STRESS OFF FAMILIES AND HELP TO KEEP THE ECONOMY CHURNINNG.

3. WHILE HIKING UP THE TAXES IT WILL HELP TO LOOK AFTER OUR RETIREES AS WELL, THOSE THAT HAVE ALREADY PAID THEIR FAIR SHARE OF TAXES OVER THEIR WORKING LIFE. STOP TAXING OUR SUPER AS WELL.

4. PLEASE STOP SELLING OFF OUR COUNTRIES SMALL AND LARGE BUSINESSES, AS IT IS TAKING AWAY JOBS. FOR EXAMPLE SPC IN SHEPPARTON. YOU ALLOW IT TO BE SOLD TO A FORGIN COUNTRY AND THEY THEN START IMPORTING FRUIT AND NOT USING THE LOCAL PRODUCE. YOU ARE IDIOTS FOR ALLOWING THIS TO HAPPEN TO OUR COUNTRY. YOU THE GOVERMENT ARE CREATING THE UNEMPLOYMENT PROBLEM.

You seem to be scavengers just picking as much as you can from us, before sending all our money to other countries that never repay the favor. Where is all the money that was raised for our bushfire victims? From what i hear its been held in the tax department and not being used for what it was raised for in the first place. Is that correct goverment?

Yes i know you will have a answer for my questions and they will be full of mumbo jumbo and will waffle on forever that we will go to sleep from bordem. But do you know what Goverment we actually are not all sheep following the masses, some of us are watching you and we are hoping and still have a little faith in you that you will finally pull your head out of other countries arses and after this new crisis is over hopefully you will finally realise that your people, the people of this nation are far more important that the rest of the world. After all you are like our parents. We also undertand that its all a fine line with the rest of the world, but honestly we could put up a fence right round this country and we would survive. No need to import anything.

Please listen and look after us as we expet you too.

Regards

One of your Children